I feel like I'm in the middle of a tunnel...so far in that I can't see behind me and it makes no sense to go back...but not close enough to the end of the tunnel to see the light at the end of it to continue to move forward.
That's how this dress is affecting me mentally. It also doesn't help my confidence to read about pleating boards and pleating feet. I wonder why didn't I think of these notions during all of my planning and my confidence is further shaken.
I don't know if I'm going to be able to make this dress...and I feel like I've totally bitten off more than I can chew. Since I have a limited amount of time, I like to actually complete a garment during my weekends. These creative weekends give me the fuel to face my regular workdays, a.k.a. my job, which gives me the opportunity to live a certain lifestyle but my weekends allow me to breathe. Y'know what I mean?
This is the reason why I don't attempt these complicated and heavily involved projects often. They eat at my soul, hog up my time, time I don't really have to spend on them, and I end up not enjoying the journey. Believe me if I had unlimited time (i.e. retirement, long layoff, win the lottery, etc.) I could really experiment with my sewing artistry but trying to cram it into weekends, just frustrates me. I know that I've shown glimpses of the levels that I could take my sewing to, but time truly constrains my ability to do so. However, I do have a need to create so usually I try to work it into the time that I have...which is why my frustration is so great right now.
I don't know if this dress will work. I don't know if I've made the right choices. I just don't know. So I'm going to wait until this evening and see how far I get...see if I can see some light at the end of the tunnel. If I can, I will try to finish the dress. If I can't, then I'm moving on to some other garments I have on my list. Hopefully at least one piece will emerge wearable from my sewing machine this weekend...
...I can always hope, right?